Why is it that when I sit down to write a blog I am mad.. or upset.. or both?? I mean really... I read ALOT of blogs. TONS. And most of them are all happy/snappy, easy/peasy, yin/yang, rainbows and freaking unicorns. Mine? Nope.. always pissed/upset/crying off about something. Well, today I have decided to get them all off my chest at one time.
First off... at what point in my oldest child's life did I teach him that school is not important? If he were struggling because he wasn't smart enough to do the work, then it would be different. But no.. he is struggling because he is lazy. Fact. Doesn't turn homework in, or writes it out SO illegibly that he gets a bad grade because he doesn't try. I talk until I feel like I am going to explode.. beg, plead, threaten. Ugh! And is it just going to get worse, or will something eventually click? I'm not positive that I will survive that long.
Next... 4 year old decides that she will scribble on the kitchen table with a pencil, of all things. Pencil makes an indentation that NO magic eraser will remove. And when I catch her doing it and ask her WTH, she smiles at me. Well, I LOST it. Put her in the corner for maybe the 5th time in all her 4 years (which might be why she is so rotten) and literally hold her into the corner. LITERALLY, yes, kicking and screaming. Then when I finally let her out of the corner, and send her to eat at said damaged table, I collapse in the middle of the floor bawling. Seriously, how can I expect her to fear me if I am crying like a baby?
Then I take the poor girl child to gymnastics. Where I have, on a weekly basis, asked her to please stay in line so that she doesn't get skipped and gets as much practice as everyone else. So she is finally trying to stand her ground, so one little brat decides to start a new line. When the teacher asks them to "form just one line please", the other child acts as if her line is the right one. Now that child knows DAMN well that she is not being truthful, but makes my little girl and another kid fall in line behind her. What the hell is that kid's parent doing that she doesn't notice her daughter is being a brat? I would, and have, pulled my little girl away from the rest of the students to ask that she please "stay in line.. pay attention... do the "tasks" in order.. etc" so that she will be the least disruptive that she can be.. and for those that know my daughter, you know this is no easy feat.
So, I am just trying to survive my day, and get the promised treat that is her reward for not being a brat in gymnastics, and someone is tailgating me for going the damn speed limit in a residential neighborhood. It took absolutely every ounce of will power I have not to slam my car into park, get out, and ask that MOM DRIVING A MINIVAN if she minds if I drive the speed limit so as not to take a chance running over someone else's kid, dog, car, whatever.
So I warn you... today is NOT the day.
RAINBOWS AND UNICORNS!!!!!
